Try this! [out of the box]

Have you ever encounter this thought?

" Who am i??"

~yeah? its a typical for us to say some details, personality, characteristics for sure but sometime, i encounter this question a little more deeper than the typical approach of the question...

i remember when I was umm about 8 or 9 yrs old, im on my bed, waiting to sleep,
this thought popped from my stream..."WHO AM I????"[a little deep]

Shallow-boxed answer from typical people may say: IM (name) im a(something) i want to be (someday)


Then it was getting really deep like i remember i had this "persona" looking at me, describing me... thinking that i was not me, [crazy??haha,naaah][and i dont use pro-drugs trust me]

"Who am i???", "what the hell am i doing here??" Why do i saw that freakin ME??"

[that what i saw on my mind]


For people who think that its a psychotic thought, well i dont mind. . its just a thought..

[flashbacks from my head, and the other persona was looking at me]

That is a ridiculous thought, seeing yourself as another person??


"who created me??" [ok!wait!Im NOT a religious advertiser!!!]


"what the hhhheeellll???? im thinking i dont EXIST??"

after that, i fell asleep.

isno ab si oka kaw??kilala mo?

[inspired by Bob Ong]

Kilala nyo ba si bobong pinoy?bob ong?bobong pinoy?bobo ba talaga?
Ang tanong do you care??[haha, pa soxal pwe eh]

Siguro kailangan lang natin ng massive sampal sa muka
para akong activist sa internet??haha, thoughts ko lang, walang personalan

Kase naisip ko lang, ang mga eto:

kung mag aaral ako para magtrabaho, pano pag sa future, sweldo ko pang one week lang?

pano pag mataas na crime ng pinas, dito pa ba ko titira??[ayoko kase makigaya don sa mga pinoy na naging amerkano na]

[teka, safe pa ba pag gumala ako sa labas ngayon?]

baka hulihin ako ng pulis[mapyia's goons]

pero ang tanong...

ano nanaman mangyayare bukas?

Last song syndrome
"Drive"
by Incubus

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that
When I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose the water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive





I was ask by my friend what was the real message of this song,

I think the "Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah" tells the courage to face whatever things that the author encounter,

Accepting it totally.


"But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel"

says you should hold the wheel of your life

"hold the wheel and drive"
and this is the main message of the song

Incubus rocks!!

My Country's Top 10 Problem

First, I do not declare these are facts

Its what I notice in my hometown[Philippines]

1. Majority of the citizen idolize western culture. Mimicking the dressing style of their pop idols, always aware about whats "in" or new on other country, i just don't get it. And also they have this crab mentality, their daily goal is to eat. I hate those who always says "mahirap lang kame eh"(were just poor folks)

2. The Government(The Mafia?) is the main problem, why?
Taxes are high. But if you ask a citizen "Do you know where your tax is going?" I'm sure he'll say "To the government'' or "I To the banks of the politicians"
Judicial system sucks because of money and power(means if you're rich, the judge is in your side)
We have a Php150 b budget a year for education, but I don't see the budget there cause, we still have a shortage, school supplies are even donated by the foundation or the media
The people's vote goes to the famous like a former actor, model and some them didn't even finish elementary school.

3. T.V shows sucks! If you ask a kid who was the actress playing a role in a show, she can tell all things she know as if that actress is her neighbor, but if you ask about a national hero...There goes, nothing... I consider this as a problem because the show business today in my country shows immoral values of the news from those actresses/actors. Its immoral because they always talk about the rumors they create, not considering who will hear their news...

4. The "Manila is the Answer" mentality.
Many folks from the province desires to live in Manila. They think that living here, would make their lives comfortable or prosperous, they're skin will go white(I hear this on a documentary of the women from province who went here and become prostitutes)

5. They have focus more on whats "cool" and famous and not those profitable information for them. I don't know why many of us worry about that actor/actress or any famous band

6. Our government ignores the scientist/ inventor of this country,

7. This country is supposed to be democratic but we live like slaves for the "legal powerful syndicate" or the government.

8. 8% of youth are aware about whats the real situation of this country.

9. Products that are imported sells than local ones.

10. In year 2080, Philippines will be on ebay..

Are you a positive thinking person?
or a negative "emo" one?

I need some feed backs or whatever comment about how you see your life.